Since last week getting back from my vacation the weather has turned in a few directions. Gone is that torrential rain and now we have colder temperatures. Yesterday I walked over in Mountain View at the Google campus which I have not done in awhile. I was out for 1 hour and 40 minutes with music going. I guess its natural to have some introspection but the thing that happened while gone brought an amount of joy and happiness. The thing has been since 2012 living with an amount of credit card debt that when I first started was crushing to me along with a divorce, living at home still as my ex-wife joyfully went through her perambulations with her new friend. It was a combination of things I could not control but this debt was a thing I could work on. So I signed up for a debt management program with a non-profit that got both companies to accept terms and conditions and less interest. It was with inordinate joy that I received the letter from them yesterday that I had paid off that entire debt. It took 4 years plus a few months and then some payments I did to get rid of it. I have to admit to yelling in the car! This was the last thing which persisted since the divorce and was a companion of mine through many jobs, moving out to a room, finding ways to not only cope but to start living again. Vacations began to lighten up my steps.
These cooler days with those 11,000 or so steps brought me to this moment and now I can revel in the things I don’t own. No house, no debt to speak of, a car that was not part of the 50/50 split that I got the worse of. Now I accomplished a thing that I had been impatiently awaiting for years. That feeling is so damned good.
My message on these cooler days is that a person can accomplish anything, get through days of diversity, find a way through adversity. There is a path. Often its not taking on the entire thing or things but tackling the things you can tackle. There will always be bigger things but I think they break down into pieces you can handle and then you can tackle and reduce things to a point where the big become small and you achieve.
Friends have come and gone for me. Things I wanted I no longer want. I don’t want another person in my life. There is no room and I am on a greater path to a thing which will happen next year. The big trip I call it when this blog will become a vehicle to record that travel to places and spaces yet to be defined. My shorter message for anyone is to enjoy the cooler days and believe in yourself.
You can do it! I did.