Deal the best you can
When you deal as best you can with things, then you are doing your best. I remember this advice from a children's cartoon show that my daughter and I watched.
I do my best and that's the best I can do
Its always easier when creating content to try not to do your best I think. If you strive for the best, perhaps you will never release a thing whether its a blog post or a story or a poem. Since I left Wordpress it has come of a bit of a shock because we get used to wanting “likes” and “comments” and we expect that our likes translate to something but they really don't. Someone clicks the like button because they do it. Not because they really like what you have written or can relate to it. When you leave all that behind for the brave new world of just creating content for its own sake, there are some dizzy moments. We are kind of conditioned to want the pluses and the hearts and the comments. I do like when someone thinks enough to comment on my post. I've felt at least then there is some attraction because someone takes the time to do a bit of creating themselves
On the Edge of Southeast Asia
When I built this year's wandering, there was no real goal. I had decided to do 5 months seeing Singapore, Malaysia and Thailand. Then it was Vietnam for two months and then on to Laos for 3 weeks. Now I am at the edge. In a little over two weeks I leave Southeast Asia for almost 7 months of wandering. I am fast approaching the last few weeks here and on 19 October I fold my tent, put away my play things, and hit the road with my camera in hand.
I will spend one final week in Vietnam and make it to Saigon and Can Tho to see people. Time to wander that big ole crazy city again. I never really get enough of Saigon. Then I am in Can Tho for about 1.5 days.
Leaving the Edge
But then October kicks in and the road opens up and I leave the edge for a long time. Time in Taiwan and Philippines and the US. Then on to the Middle East. My take is I must do the things. So much to see in different corners of the world that I have not. Now I have the moments to do it. I have all the flights and hotels booked up through landing back in Phnom Penh in June 2020 and I even have another airbnb booked for then. After that, I know not.
In my wandering life I have found the hidden mercury of perfection to the road. I take the steps and find the record there and wander on to new places. I live how I want to live. Maybe next year something else becomes visible to me when I return. I am not going to attempt to answer questions about the people and places that may erupt in 2020. The next 7 or 8 months of wandering the world is all I could ask for. From seeing Morocco to a river cruise on the Nile from Luxor to Aswan. Its the world I dreamt of seeing as the ugliness of divorce reared its head. I also have someone in my life now that matters. I don't know what it means. I have not had someone in my life for 10 years.
I do know that what I want from blogging and writing and creating content is not tied any longer to whether someone likes or promotes or even reads this puny attempt. I would not know now if someone nodded or shook their head. It’s like someone waved the magic wand at blogging like I waved the wand to leave two years ago. I just decided. And I waited. Perhaps suffered a bit. But then the future lit up and became today. So did blogging. It has lit up to today. A brave new world where it all matters again. No instagrams stories here. No twitter fame. No pins. Only the words lining up. And I like it so much.
I’m even writing this post offline in IAwriter on my iPhone 11. There is a future. Just don’t wait for it to do the things. It will be too late.